Am I just spinnin’ my own wheels?

…and I don’t mean like the cool spinnin’ rims on “Cribs” and “Pimp My Ride.”

As I speak in metaphor, mine are sort of squeaking; and only perhaps 3 of the 4 are spinning in the same direction.

Anyway.

My kids are home today in solidarity with a city-wide Tucson teachers’ strike
(aka “sick out”,…or whatever one might call it.) 
Over 800 teachers have called in sick already according to the news on my television.

I’m realizing that being on the Internet &/or computer is not that fulfilling anymore. 

I’ve been maintaining a bunch of blogs for no apparent reason. 
Perhaps it was an outlet of sorts for a few years,
but… I feel like I may possibly be faced with a dilemma.

I don’t like the news I come across.  Yet I still seek it out like a junkie.

I have been very serious about utilizing the tools laid out in the books,
“Ask and It is Given” & “Law of Attraction,”
…as well as the movie, “The Secret.”

But, a year later, I’m still getting agitated daily,
and have not seen huge signs of progress in my life
by changing my thinking.

I’ve posted lots of Abraham-Hicks quotes & stuff all over the Internet,
primarily as a way for me to get the message to sink in to myself,
by spending so much time fucking around on the computer regarding a certain topic.

But, it’s not like I’ve become some sort of expert or master of the material.
Far, far from it. Granted, I now change the channel on TV when I see violence,
and I turn my gaze away if I see a graphic, horrific image on the computer or TV,
…and I try not to obsess on the negative news &
the so-called bad guys running amuk on our planet,
most specifically our misLeaders in Washington,
nor do I dwell on conspiracies anymore, even as some of them are highly probable.

And even as I’m always looking forward to watching Countdown,  or listening to Seder on Sundays.

But here’s the thing,…believing something prior to any evidence confirming it
… could be construed as creating an ideology,
and then cherry-picking facts,
and focusing only in certain directions,
so as to only see evidence of the validity of your ideology,
may not actually be reality.

Which seems fine if you’re trying to consciously create your future,
…by controlling your thoughts now. As per authors such as Wallace Wattles, Napoleon Hill, Wayne Dyer, Jerry & Esther Hicks, Jane Roberts, etc…

…But you’ve got world leaders & religious fundamentalists &
self-serving people conjuring up absurd, dangerous belief systems .
.. and then marketing these views to their hundreds of millions of believers
… and even cable news networks & mainstream media just making up stuff.
Which is basically pimping lies on the masses.  And these lies have had harmful consequences.

Not to mention we’ve always had self-serving, New Age gurus…such as the Sri Rashneesh & the Maharishi Mahesh Yogi, … and cult leaders, etc..
which have given New Age & self-help teachers a bad name.

And, basically, the “good” guys & the “bad” guys are using the same methodology.
Ignoring the facts on the ground.

Abraham-Hicks would say “Don’t focus on reality.”
President Bunnypants would say “The surge is working.”

Both seem to require quite the leap of faith. Based on … belief.

And belief can be helpful. Or it can be dangerous.

And, it’s is argued that all humans operate out of habit…based on conscious & unconscious beliefs…of which most of the beliefs are inaccurate…based on inadequate information & coming as a result of flaws in everybody’s critical thinking faculties;
sometimes referred to as Projection. (…where everything we see gets filtered through our
pre-conceived notions & already established biases & beliefs regarding any situation.)

So. What to do? Just think & believe what you want? But, shut the fuck up about it?
Do as thou wilt? But, do not try to justify to others?
But, do not even let anyone know what you’re thinking? Just do it? Just think it?
And see what happens. Just see if being more positive affects your life for the better?
Just see if when you choose to focus on positive things, more good things will happen around you? Don’t get in a debate with others about it? Don’t try to justify your methods?

Well, that’s probably the way to do it. Because, otherwise everyone is just going to think you’re being indifferent to the bad news you hear about, &
just letting the bad guys win by brainwashing yourself that everything’s all right.

It seems there’s no way to stay positive, unless you just stay out of certain conversations. It’s why there’s been such a backlash against the movie, “The Secret,”…probably.
The argument is that people are being naive & not using their brains &
are being selfish, not helping fight social & economic injustices, etc…

Even as wifeybot & I are both advocates of the teachings of Abraham-Hicks &
the teachings of “The Law of Attraction”,…she’s a proud atheist & I’m not.

We both don’t care for religion. But, she’s against it, & I think it’s fine for others,
if it works for them.
She thinks people who believe in God & religions are stupid & gullible.
I don’t at all.
She watches the news & likes to talk about sad, horrible stories she’s heard.
And I don’t wanna hear it.

She’ll watch Democracy Now! & Countdown with Keith Olbermann, but that’s as far as she’ll look into alternative, unreported mainstream news.

She discounts conspiracies & anything else that isn’t broadcast on mainstream media without even taking a minute to look into the arguments posed by Jim Marrs or David Icke or
whatever is written at Rense.com.

I basically assume the TV and newspaper are lying to me, due to the interests of the billionaires who run them. She says I have no right to discount the news as not being accurate since I don’t have any proof. But, she can discount the existence of God without any proof.

So, anyway there’s an analysis to be done which must somehow account for why there is usefulness in ideologies, & huge danger in ideologies. And how do you sort it out?

I’m starting to understand a bit more why a few people from the old Majority Report Radio (now called “Seder on Sundays”) blog … jumped all over my shit when I started talking about thinking better thoughts in order to “fight the power.” I had concluded that all the negative attention that the Bunnypants Gang was getting, basically empowered them more.
Such as the anti-Bush election in 2004. Instead of the pro-Kerry election.

(Regardless of rigged voting machines & voter disenfranchisement,
Kerry still should have won by a ton a votes, even if millions of votes weren’t counted.)

The Majority Report Radio bloggers’ generalizations about all ideology being suspect, if not flat out dangerous, … was not argued effectively, in my opinion.
Regardless,…they had a point.

But, then I guess that reminds me of a quote from Bob Proctor in “The Secret.”
Re: electricity. He said: “Nobody understands how it works, but we all use it.” …
…”You can cook a man’s dinner with electricity,…but you can also cook the man.”

So where is this balance? This middle-ground.

Does everything boil down to human self-interest?  To economic decision-making based on fear & greed?

Based on my study of financial history,…besides monetary, fiscal & overall government or central bank policies,…things like stock markets are affected soley by two human conditions:
fear & greed.

Economics is what affects humans & their decision-making.
And these decisions are derived for the most part from inadequate information & faulty reasoning. But yet that’s how it plays out on this planet.

The whole free market theory is based on the existence of some “invisible hand” which keeps the whole thing going using the assumption that everybody will act based on their own self-interest. And that this behavior ends up helping everyone.

Clearly there’s flaws to that thinking….

‘Cause otherwise this self-interest … would lead to a rising tide … that lifts all boats.
And it doesn’t.

The chaos caused by government deregulation has clearly shown that there needs to be some kind of mild regulation at times…as the corporate greedheads run amuck.

But, the balance.

Why is a State of the Union address from President Bunnypants undoubtably 99% bunk.
And why is the movie, “The Secret,” undoubtably not?

How is one to create a belief system devoid of irrational fear?
And how is it that the power of love supposedly can conquer all the lurking demons?

And, how does a passionate liberal not have his/her soul crushed by the news we all hear?

What is illusion?  What is real?  What is the most effective way to react?
Are we all the bad guys in this saga? Are we all responsible for all of this?
Is it something inside us all which we must change, for things to start getting better in the world?

Can everything bad in the world all be my fault?

I sure wish Abbie Hoffman was still around for all of this.
Some crazy antics might cheer me up.
(Although Medea Benjamin might just be catching her stride.)

And, I sure wish I could be more grateful for all the good things in my life that I take for granted, and focus more on the positive.

Old habits are hard to break, I guess.

Final version of this post can be found HERE.