“Gotta keep dreaming in the bed you made…”

It would be nice if things were coming together. 
During brief flashes or brief moments of certain days,
I sometimes think they are. To be able to carrry around a consistent tone of optimism throughout each and every day…would be nice. Apparently, one is able to, potentially.

It would seem to take constant diligence until such behavior
became a subconscious habit.

Sometimes, I think I have enough puzzle pieces regarding life and reality…that it should be possible for me to exhale & relax. It’s possible that I am exercising a type of OCD (obsessive-compulsive) behavior regarding regularly moving forward in life…with baby steps,…fearless.

It feels like I’m double-checking whether the doors are locked,
whether I have my keys, did I bring enough water, do I have my i.d., my license, my money, did I turn off the water, did I bring my meds, should I bring weed, should I grab a cold beer for the drive,…etc… With this kind of hesitance & wavering, or trying to sort everything into tiny boxes,
no shades of grey; just black & white,… like a stopped deer in headlights in the middle of the freeway…;…it’s a wonder things flow as smoothly as they do.  Although, more of a bumpy smooth.

Ah, but there’s something about jumping into the abyss
that can make one nervous.
Like whether or not to worry about whether gravity is in effect
& what the repercussions are for a wingless human.

I want to take things to the next level. I’m ready for the next level. I’m just not sure what the next level is. Nor where it is.

If it is the visionaries who thrive in all times,
then I want to be a visionary.
I know it is the best time ever to be alive, intuitively.
But, the news is launching an all out media blitz
to try and remind me I should feel bad.
And, then the television, etc… lists all the reasons.

Listening to conspiracy theorists put down fellow conspiracy theorists reminds me of the primary/caucus election baloney going on
…where Repugthugs want to claim they are Ronald Reagan the 2nd,
…and Demoweasels all want to claim that the other Demoweasels are really Repugthugs in Demoweasel clothing. Or something.

Well, I’m not going down that thought path right now.
Although, I probably will watch Countdown with Keith Olbermann in a half hour. Hardball with Tweety-bird is on now, & that really is a pointless use of time to me
when I watch Chris Matthews.
And, not fair to Tweety-bird to call him that.
Because Tweety-bird was pretty smart, if I recall.

Anyway. I gotta be productive now. But, I do hope I come back to this forum to express my thoughts,…because…something’s up.

Just not sure what.

Love. Love. Love.